Thursday, March 6, 2014
I have this huge pain in my neck... it's called a herniated disc.
Or I had a herniated disc last week.
Friday I checked in to have this repaired and now have a stiff neck from a piece of titanium screwed to my spine.
I am not the best patient. There I said it.
I am stubborn. Try to do too much too soon.
Feel lazy just sitting around at home watching crappy tv shows all day.
Side note...we don't have cable and only watch our certain shows thru Netflix or on the computer. I started looking for something to watch. Mindless tv maybe with a little humor and there was so much sex and naked people and language. Not sure if it's because I have the Netflix version but come one. Just a good old funny movie was more difficult to find that I anticipated. I don't need to see people with no clothes on in the first few shots. And Hollywood...you really can make a good movie that people will watch without all the language.
Okay, rant over.
This is my second neck surgery. First one was about 9 years ago for the same thing.
Herniated disc at C5/C6.
I remember having someone sit with me that first day or two while Paul went back to work but I don't remember when I resumed daily activities.
No kids back then so there wasn't as much to do.
This go round has definitely been harder than I thought it would be.
C6/C7 is a little more difficult surgery apparently since it is lower down the spine.
They actually move the esophagus out of the way! This has caused a good deal of pain.
Never expected to have trouble swallowing. Hurts down in my chest to swallow still. Getting better slowly.
Feels like someone is pressing in on my throat. Wearing the collar exaggerates that feeling. Claustrophobic kinda. I do not like this feeling!
The pain is pretty bad but manageable with pain meds. I try to not take them as often and have tried an alternate method of pain relief.
Peppermint Essential Oil.
I have to say I am still a bit skeptical but it did seem to help yesterday. You put it on your skin down the spine. I want to investigate it further. I am all for the natural method!
My dear hubby has to remind me that I did just have surgery less than a week ago and that it needs to heal.
I don't need to be so hard on myself.
Work can wait and things there will go on without me. I left ahead of schedule in preparation.
(I am at work today and so far so good. Definitely in pain but feel somewhat productive.)
I am ready to pick up GB again! Ready to wrestle with OM and have tickle fights with SK.
Anxious to see how it looks at tomorrow's follow up appointment with my surgeon. If the titanium plate looks like the last one did it is dog bone shaped. They removed the first plate because that surgery had healed so well the "hardware" was no longer necessary.
Thanks for all the good thoughts and prayers. Keep them coming as this is a longer healing process than I thought. For me to be patient with myself and let my body heal as it needs to so I'll be 110% for my family soon!
Monday, March 3, 2014
Who's ready for Spring?!
I am beyond ready. The daffodils are blooming in the yard and I can see small buds on my jasmine plant by the mailbox. Will the next few weeks of crazy weather kill them? I hope not. I want to smell the fresh cut grass and see all the flowers in bloom.
I have gathered with a few friends to make jumping into spring a little bit more fun!
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Monday, February 24, 2014
Have you ever looked in the mirror and felt disgusted with what you see?
I know I have.
Why? Where and when did this feeling originate?
Why are women in general so mean and judgmental towards each other?
She just had a baby but *gasp* she still has a tummy and 8 months later is still wearing some of her maternity clothes.
That woman who has no children and no full time job. Why is she over-weight? She has time to go to the gym.
What about the mother who works full time along with her spouse and has small children at home?
The young, teenage girl who is bullied at school for not wearing the most current clothes like her "friends".
The mom who is caretaker to her littles and runs errands or potty trains all day while her spouse works.
The single mom putting her child through school while working 2 jobs 6 days a week.
The mom of teenagers who juggles the army wife life, works full time and gets her children to a multitude of medical appointments.
That young girl who is made fun of for being too tall, skinny, too short, chubby,etc.
Come on ladies! Let's give each other a break.
Instead of tearing each other down and pointing out faults; let's build each other up to be proud of the women God made!
He didn't intend for us all to look the same or we would. Some of us are big boned, skinny boned, and maybe even bigger boned.
Be kind to the woman who under that sweet smile desperately wants a biological child.
The woman who is shooting hormone laden drugs into her system while trying to conceive and the extreme emotional roller coaster she is on each month are affecting her weight.
The young woman trying to find her voice and way in this harsh world.
The new mom who is just trying to survive those first months of no sleep.
The woman who has worked all day and feels like a failure when she comes home to a dirty house but is too exhausted to clean.
The woman who is caring for aging parents. The stress of maybe losing them sooner than she wants to and decisions that have to be made.
The mom who wipes dirty bottoms all day and constantly picks up toys and does the dirty dishes.
Not only should we be kind to other women but also look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself the same thing. Be proud of who God made you to be!
You are beautiful!
You are loved!
You are unique!
Thursday, January 23, 2014
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Today is blog hop day and I chose the topic of A Raging Battle.
"4. A Raging Battle ~ Food isn’t the only thing that tempts to destroy our physical, emotional, and spiritual well-being. What other things do you currently crave more than God?"
It is scary to lay this all out there but my word for 2014 is free so here goes...
For me the raging battle is Acceptance and Approval.
I have fought this for so many years it seems natural for me to want others approval.
I was not the cool kid in class although I had plenty of great friends. Or band geeks as we were labeled. :)
I had one real boyfriend before graduating high school (which is not necessarily a bad thing).
I have sought acceptance by friends and even family. They don't like this trait so I'll try to change it. They do like this about me so play that part up.
Even to this day I seek acceptance and approval from my family and friends, co-workers and people I don't even know. That would include you if you are reading this!
What will they think if I say or do this. Should I have done that. I shoulda, woulda, coulda!
Seeking after and Craving God is the only thing that is truly going to fill these holes. Loss seems to be what my holes contain and what makes me crave this attention from others.
I lost my mother when I was a baby.
I lost my second mom, Paul's mom, who I had so much in common with and loved as though she had been in my life for all of my years.
I lost 2 babies to miscarriage.
I, I, I...
I do want to use these circumstances to help others through a loss or other situation but they do not define who I am. And should not control how I feel about myself or how I think others view me.
I am the perfect daughter of God and having his unconditional love is the approval and acceptance I need.
God and I have been on this journey together. It wasn't until my 2nd round of fertility treatments that I let God have it. I was so angry and didn't know what was wrong with me. Why me, God? That was the first time in my life that I had laid it all out and trusted God with my heart.
Really, it took me a long time to do that. Why not sooner? I want to teach my kids to have an open communication with God now so that when troubles do arise they already know him on a personal level.
He is continually showing me that I am his precious daughter and I am learning to trust in that and know that I am free to be me!
Hitting send on this is not easy because what if you don't like what I have said. Fighting against that fear and praying this helps at least one of you know that you are free to be the beautiful, talented, forgiven daughter of our Lord!